I keep a daily journal. I use it to reflect on everything from my day-to-day life to my long-term goals.
Recently, I had about 3 solid weeks of non-stop work. A lot of projects lined up all at once. I jumped right into the flow of it. But then everyday, when I’d sit down to journal, all I had to write about was work. It was repetitive and boring, which reflected how I felt about my days, and myself.
And don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for all the work I get. I actually like most of what I do. But when that’s ALL I do, I lose sight of myself in the grand scheme of things.
At any given time, I’m always a little more tuned-in to a couple facets of my life. That’s where I put my attention, and that’s what ends up flourishing. But then I start to notice other parts of my life slipping away. So I grasp at them, desperately overcompensating. I pour all of my energy into them. But that just causes the other things to fall apart.
It’s hard to do it all. Sometimes I let myself down. Sometimes I let other people down.
I can’t always be everything I want to be, and I have a hard time forgiving myself for it.
But journaling helps me keep my shit in check. I use it to stay self-aware of my current situation, and to try and make the best choices for my current (and future) self.
And I try to remind myself that I’m doing my best, and that’s all I can do.
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